Archive for January, 2012

24 January, 2012

#5. Closure: The Prayer

God: “Grace. You want her back?”
Bruce Nolan: “No. I want her to be happy, no matter what that means. I want her to find someone who will treat her with all the love she deserved from me. I want her to meet someone who will see her always as I do now, through Your eyes.”
God: “Now THAT’s a prayer.”
– (Bruce Almighty, 2003)
Now that is my prayer too.. :)
24 January, 2012

#4. Finally, My Gratitude

Been falling too deep it makes me hard to let go.

Been flying too high I’m not eager to crash the land.

Been dreaming too much I begin to forget reality.

Been being so weak I start losing maturity.

Been away so long I find it hard to listen to You.


Maybe I would never realize I have a family that genuinely loves me; unrequited love.

Maybe I would never realize I have a bunch of people that claim themselves as my ‘friends‘ and show their care to me; they contact me, pay a visit to my home, hang out with me, cheer me up, listen to my stories, skip class/activities just to see me when I ask them to meet up, call me just to see how I’m doing, text me just to ask how’s my day, everyday… Ain’t those just sweet and inevitably thoughtful? :’) Yes, maybe I would never be able to treasure my friends this much.

Maybe I would never realize how the ones I rarely meet also care for me just so much, the ones who seem distant in social level care, know, feel sorry, and try to raise me up… Touché.

Maybe I would never really cherish my time and what’s in front of me; just like you said. I think too much of the distant ones and less-enjoy what’s happening right on my face. I was a fool, really.


So here I am, conveying my gratitude to you, for you’ve been one of the most influencing teachers of mine. Yes, each person I’ve met in my life is a teacher to me; this thought came into my mind after the great guru (a friend who can’t be named) taught me.

I also come to my own thoughts (original one, finally!) :

We must not be heartless in relationships. But it is always necessary to use our heart less.

Gratsia Kancanamaya (January, 2012)


Thank you :)

15 January, 2012

#3. Acceptance

If every rub irritates you, how could you be polished to shine?

We cannot ease our pain if we keep confronting it, if we reject the pain, if we do not fully accept it as our best friend that grows our greatness.

A friend who can’t be named (December, 2011)


The Guest House

This being human is a guest house.
Every morning a new arrival.
A joy, a depression, a meanness,
some momentary awareness comes
as an unexpected visitor.

Welcome and entertain them all!
Even if they’re a crowd of sorrows,
who violently sweep your house
empty of its furniture,
still treat each guest honorably.
He may be clearing you out
for some new delight.

The dark thought, the shame, the malice,
meet them at the door laughing,
and invite them in.

Be grateful for whoever comes,
because each has been sent
as a guide from beyond.

– Mewlana Jalaluddin Rumi
I’m embracing reality; with the bitter-plain-sweet-sour-and-any-other-taste that spices it up!

14 January, 2012

#2. The Wisdom

Being patient means giving time for man’s limited logic to figure out God’s magnificent will. In that period of time, man’s logic will eventually do understand, in the right time, when God’s long-prepared-plan’s being executed.

A friend who can’t be named (December, 2011)


14 January, 2012

#1. Dispute

And so I say I don’t love you, though it kills me.. It’s a lie that sets you free.

James Blunt (Love, Love, Love)


Could it be…?

Meh. Too much drama.